Honest Explicit and Vulnerable

It's not always easy, but in our sexual intimacy it's almost always necessary to be honest, explicit, and vulnerable... especially with yourself.  This is where people tighten up the most.  A great practice, a way to start being Honest, Explicit, and Vulnerable is to write in a journal or diary every day.  Keep it private.  But in that writing, strive for brutal open eyed honestly.  Avoid melodrama... just use your pen (or typewriter like a knife and cut into who you really are).  The results will open you dramatically and deepen any possibility you have an authentic relationship.

Venus

Getting in touch with the deepest feminine panpsychic energy... embodied greatly by the Goddess Venus... Today feeling the depth of the love and the oneness... an open conversation with the feminine love source of the human race... tribe... belonging... protection...fierceness... and softness.  She is ALL and NOTHING at the same time.  Come journey deeper into the fantasy of magic, the dripping bloody openhearted loving that is possible when you drop all your baggage and step into and through your fears.

Card of the Day

A few years ago I would pull a Tarot card of the day, and offer a meditation upon it on my blog and on Facebook.  I probably did this for about 3-4 years, daily.  It grew quite popular and was a lot of fun, and it was useful as a guide to life...

Eventually I moved beyond it to different areas of my life.

As I work on developing my video skills for the Jason F Smith website, I've chosen to start putting up a 1 minute daily video.  The early ones will certainly be rough, but by daily putting myself out there, witnessing myself and being witnessed I will find that frequency where selling is ME.

So here is the first video... rough as it may be.



Death

A couple considerations for facing your own death:

Don't fear death...
If it comes, embrace it.
As if you are lying down
next to a beautiful woman

-Ragnar Lothbrok

And now a quote from the movie (love it or hate it): American Beauty.

Lester Burnham: [narrating] I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined our street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday.


How Will I Live My Life?

How Will I Live My Life?

If this turns out to be my last day on this planet... what will I do and how will I do it?

I taught a class on Memento Mori (Remember We Must Die) recently in Santa Monica for the Masculine Master series of workshops hosted by Metaphysical Fitness. This class I offered was born out of my own practice. In order to live a rich, full life, so the theory goes, one must embrace one’s impending death.  Anything less is to live in fear… and hence to clog your ability to life a rich, full, life.

I’ve discovered this ‘teaching’ to be fully true. 

And so I daily enter the portal of death willingly to see what this life has to offer… and I come back to this question:

If this turns out to be my last day on this planet… what will I do and how will I do it?

Og Mandino, in his seminal book The Greatest Salesman in the World makes this proactive affirmation: I Will Live This Day As If It Is My Last.

But how do you do that?

If this was my last day I would want to say goodbye to my children, my woman, my friends. I would enjoy a few moments of beauty, refresh my mind on good memories, and tie off any loose ends I might have to the best of my ability. I would break my heart open and let the sadness and the appreciation overwhelm me fully and just sink into a beautiful goodbye.

But what do I do the next day? Presuming I don’t actually die… how do I live the next day as if it’s my last?

Most of us would probably quit work and come home to our family, yes?

Nobody on their deathbed has ever said "I wish I had spent more time at the office".

-- Rabbi Harold Kushner

So how do you translate this into a daily practice?

First of all, it requires an immediate reorganization of what you are doing with your life. Consider this: If this was you last day, would you still be at your job?  If you answer no… then you are in the wrong job.

Are your loose ends tied off?  Have you filled your life with beauty, appreciation, and service? Have you given your gifts fully?  Have you offered love to everyone?

I had a friend growing up whose family had a rule: You never leave the house without saying I Love You to everyone. Never leave in anger. You never know what might happen out there…

You might die.

Which brings me back to this sentence: If this turns out to be my last day on this planet… what will I do and how will I do it?

The first part is to reorganize your life so that what you are doing each day is full: full of service, full of receiving, fully of gratitude, full of depth. Such reorganization however is often, (at least it was for me) a massive undertaking.

So what do you do, daily, as you are restructuring your life?

The answer, I’ve discovered, is in the word ‘how’.  How will I do it?

If this is my last day… how will I type these words? How will I breathe? How will I walk? How will I speak? How will I eat?

From this perspective, while dismantling my old life and rebuilding my new life from scratch… I discovered that life took on a totally different texture.  My movement slowed, my smile deepened, my heart opened.  By asking HOW I will live this life… I added depth to even the seemingly mundane pieces. 

When I first heard of the idea of living this fully, it felt very esoteric, and unreachable. But I can report to you that after sustaining a practice of fullness the results have been profound and beautiful. There is a permeating sense of gratitude, contentment, and flow. 

Try it.  See what it does for you.  Report back.  I would love to hear your experiences.

Masculine Mastery Refelections

Just came back from co-facilitating the Masculine Mastery Workshop in California with a few fellow warriors (Justin Patrick Pierce, Christopher Sunyata, William Espinosa-Setchko, and John Wineland).  What a profound experience when a group of powerful men show up to improve their lives together, witnessing a rebirth of their masculine power and focus.  I am deeply humbled by the experience.

Looking forward to the next one.

Meanwhile… October 16, 17, and 18 heralds the arrival of the Modern Day Warrior Workshop… check it out for some warrior adventure.


What would you write?

I was contemplating the vast concept of self creation... If someone were to tell you to write your life down as a novel... from this point FORWARD... what would you write?  Would you put in some difficult situations just to be fair, or would you inherit the universe and make yourself God?  If you wrote it... what would you write for your future?

Write your life and those around you... starting from today... all the way to your death (if you choose to die).  Be specific... consider this like 'wishing' to a Genie.  He might take your words one way when you meant another....

And when you are done... (if you actually did the exercise), consider this desire:

Grow up.  Drop your Fears.  Merge Seamlessly with the Universe.

And from that point... co-creatively write your life as it comes.  You lose your keys?  Magically find them.  You get sick? Magically heal.  Have a friend who is struggling?  Magically help them.

Surrendering to what is... while co-creatively changing the universe using the magic of consciousness.  Which is it?

Sometimes I think about life and I think it feels like we are all

rats in a maze

slaves in a cage

gerbils on a wheel...

and I wonder what would happen if we said NO.  I'm not playing that game.  Period.  And we were all willing to die rather than accept slavery.

Humans are programmed to adapt and survive... even the harshest and cruelest events.  

But what about our day to day life?  The common day to day gerbil wheel grind?  Are we lulled into some type of sleep?

If we could write it differently... what would we write?