Polarity taught me the physics.
Purpose showed me the depth.
And then I made the classic mistake:
I thought Stage 4 was all light.
All softness, love, surrender, compassion.
You know — save-the-spider, practice-yoga, whisper-to-the-trees energy.
Then one night, there was a sound downstairs.
Jennie and I sat bolt upright.
A real sound. Not imagined.
The house was full of sleeping kids.
I’d trained for that moment — but never truly expected it.
I turned to Jennie and said,
“You call 911. I love you. I’ll take care of this.”
I grabbed the baseball bat I keep beside the bed and went downstairs — quiet, slow, ready.
Someone was in the house.
But they heard me coming and ran.
I chased them out into the dark until they vanished into the night.
When I walked back in, Jennie threw herself into my arms.
A few months later, we were in line at a movie theater.
Two guys were harassing a young woman nearby.
I looked at Jennie and said,
“Stay here.”
I walked over and stood directly in front of them — close enough to feel their breath.
I didn’t yell.
Didn’t posture.
Didn’t play tough.
I just stood there.
Still.
Present.
Unmoving.
They cracked jokes to save face, then backed up…
and kept backing up…
until they were literally off the curb, stumbling into the street, fleeing into the night.
The young woman thanked me.
Jennie later whispered,
“That was the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen you do.”
Here’s what I learned:
My pursuit of light alone left me incomplete.
Deeper than “love and light” is access to power.
To darkness.
To the hunter who tracks and kills prey to feed his family.
To the warrior who protects his children.
To the man capable of violence — in service of love.
This isn’t aggression.
It’s not dominance.
It’s not control.
It’s channeling dark energy through the heart.
David Deida gave me the key:
“What energy do you think Jesus had when he cleared the temple?”
That was dark warrior energy — righteous, fierce, protective.
And Mary holding the Christ child?
That was pure light — radiant, soft, unwavering.
Both are sacred.
Both are necessary.
The teaching isn’t light OR dark.
It’s light AND dark — through the heart.
That’s partnership.
Not just partnership with another person —
but partnership within yourself.
The partnership between your light nature and your dark nature.
Your softness and your ferocity.
Your capacity to nurture and your capacity to protect.
When you learn to run both energies through the heart, you become whole.
You’re not performing goodness.
You’re not suppressing your edge.
You’re not afraid of your own power.
You are integrated.
Polarity taught me the masculine and feminine.
Purpose taught me the four stages of depth.
Partnership taught me the whole spectrum — without apology.
And this is what we practice at the Heber Meditation Retreat on Saturday, December 13th.
You’ll learn to:
• Recognize the difference between toxic aggression and sacred warrior energy
• Feel dark energy (protection, power, boundaries) move safely through your heart
• Integrate your capacity for both softness and fierceness
• Stand fully in your edge — without losing your center
Saturday, December 13 — Heber City, Utah
A full day of embodied integration and partnership.
The light alone isn’t enough.
You need the whole spectrum.
—Jason
Heber Meditation Retreat Part 3 - Purpose
Heber Meditation Retreat
Wednesday - PURPOSE — The Second Pillar
Polarity brought the spark back. But that was only the beginning.
The intimacy was alive again.
The marriage was solid.
The business was working.
And yet… something in me felt hollow.
I remember sitting in my office one morning, staring at my calendar, feeling this low, persistent hum of:
“Is this really it?”
Not depression.
Not crisis.
Just an ache — like there was a deeper layer of life I hadn't touched yet.
I called Suzanne. She laughed.
“Yeah. You just hit Stage 2. Welcome to Independence. Go back and see David again.”
I had no idea what she meant.
That’s when I learned something that changed my entire life:
Polarity is the first initiation.
Purpose is the second.
I sat on the studio floor across from Jennie.
I embodied the masculine… breath deep into my belly, spine straight, chin tucked, tongue on the roof of my mouth.
Heart open. Senses wide.
I felt big — like Jupiter big.
Then Jennie began to move.
She didn’t move with thought — she moved with light.
She flowed like a goddess, surrendering fully into the container of my breath, my arms, my gaze, my depth.
The polarity was strong.
The arc of energy was palpable.
And then it happened.
We dissolved.
The ego dropped.
I wasn’t just Jason witnessing her — I was the universe witnessing her.
And Jennie dissolved as well — she became light.
We weren’t “Jason and Jennie” anymore.
In that one moment, everything changed.
Our loving became a living arc of purpose in the world.
If polarity was the best drug in the world, nothing prepared us for this depth.
And that’s when I understood:
Polarity opens the door.
Purpose pulls you through it.
Purpose isn’t about goals, careers, or missions.
It’s about depth — the maturation of your soul.
We live in four stages:
Stage 1 — Dependence
The child. “Take care of me. Make me safe.”
Stage 2 — Independence
The adolescent. “I got this. I don’t need anyone.”
(90% of high performers get stuck here.)
Stage 3 — Interdependence
The adult. “We build together. We serve something real.”
Stage 4 — Integrated
The mystic.
The warrior.
The mother.
The saint.
Stage 4 is unmistakable once you feel it.
It’s the moment the ego steps back and the soul steps forward.
The moment right action comes through you without calculation.
The moment fear dissolves and alignment takes its place.
It’s Christ offering himself for love of the world.
It’s Mary holding the Christ child with divine clarity.
It’s Arjuna in the Bhagavad Gita lifting his bow and saying,
“Not my will — but the will of the sacred.”
Stage 4 is when your life becomes a living sacrifice to love, truth, depth, and purpose.
Not martyrdom.
Not burnout.
Not performance.
Alignment.
Once I learned these stages — and more importantly, once I felt them — everything shifted.
I could see where I was stuck.
Where my clients were stuck.
What was next.
Depth isn’t thinking.
Depth isn’t analyzing.
Depth isn’t self-improvement.
Depth is the state your nervous system enters when your ego finally stops running the show.
And this is what we practice at the Heber Meditation Retreat on Saturday, December 13th.
Most people have never been guided into Stage 3…
or felt even five seconds of Stage 4.
But you can taste it.
Even in one day.
Here’s what we practice:
• Recognize which stage you're living in (and where you're stuck)
• Feel the difference between Stage 2 and Stage 3 in your body
• Experience the first moments of Integrated alignment
• Practice embodied depth — not as a concept, but as a state
Saturday, December 13 — Heber City, Utah
A full day of embodied purpose and depth.
Register at Heber Meditation Retreat Website.
That hollow feeling isn’t failure.
It’s the invitation to the next stage.
—Jason
Tuesday - 🔥 POLARITY — The First Pillar
Heber Meditation Retreat
Tuesday - 🔥 POLARITY — The First Pillar
This is where everything began for me—the moment my marriage, my body, and my entire spiritual path snapped into clarity.
We were desperate. Our spark had died. We had tried everything.
So Friday morning, on the first day of a David Deida workshop (this was 15 years ago), I raised my hand first and laid it all out:
"Our marriage feels flat. The passion is gone. We don't know what to do."
David looked at me, nodded once, and said:
"Ah. No problem. We'll fix that by the end of the weekend."
Then he moved on to the next person.
I was pissed. Did he even hear me? Six thousand dollars, flights, rental car, hotel—and this guy shrugs like it's a tire rotation?
But by Sunday night…
Everything was fixed. And the answer wasn’t psychological. It wasn’t a communication technique. It wasn’t “trying harder.”
It was in the body.
Yeah, I had read David’s books.
My friend Suzanne Wagner had told me for months:
“You need polarity.”
So I read thirty books. Thirty.
Nothing changed.
Finally she said, “Stop reading. Just go see David.”
So we did. And within 72 hours of working with him, I learned something the books could not teach me:
Polarity is not an idea.
It is an embodied physics.
Masculine isn’t a role—it's a way your breath, spine, and awareness express themselves.
Feminine isn’t a personality—it's a way energy, emotion, and radiance move through the body.
When Jennie embodied her feminine, and I embodied the masculine witness… something opened.
The spark returned.
The connection came roaring back.
And we finally understood how this worked—not conceptually, but physically.
That weekend was the ignition point.
But here’s the truth: we had to keep practicing.
Polarity isn’t a one-time fix—it’s a living current. You step into it, you feel it, you practice it, and it becomes yours.
That’s why I’m hosting the Heber Meditation Retreat on Saturday, December 13th.
This is a Level 1, entry-level day of practice—the same doorway Jennie and I walked through years ago.
If you’re brand new, perfect.
If you already know polarity, perfect—come sharpen your skill.
Here’s what we practice:
• How to feel masculine presence in your actual body (not just think about it)
• How to recognize feminine radiance when it shows up—and how to meet it
• How to practice polarity as a living, embodied physics
Saturday, December 13 — Heber City, Utah
A full day of embodied polarity and presence.
Register here at our website, Heber Meditation Retreat.
The spark is not gone.
It’s waiting for you in your body.
—Jason
Long Day of Creation
Long day of creation.
Practice isn’t glamorous — but it’s what makes things real.
More coming tomorrow.
The Day Everything Changed Between Me and Jennie
“The Day Everything Changed Between Me and Jennie”
(Heber Meditation Retreat Post — Level 1 Taste)
There was a moment, years ago, when everything between me and Jennie fell apart.
We had been together about a year.
The spark was insane at first — electric, alive, the kind of connection that makes you think the universe finally got one right.
And then… it just died.
No fight.
No betrayal.
No crime scene.
Just a slow collapse of intimacy that neither of us could explain.
We loved each other.
We were aligned.
We were two good people doing our best.
But the aliveness — the thing that made us us — vanished.
If you’ve ever been in that space, you know the quiet terror of it.
The panic.
The “What’s wrong with me?”
The “Did I pick the wrong person?”
The “Why can’t I feel what I used to feel?”
And here’s the truth no one tells you:
Most relationships don’t die because of conflict.
They die because the nervous system flatlines.
Because the connection stops being embodied.
That was us.
Until one weekend changed everything.
I didn’t know it then, but walking into that small workshop with Jennie was the moment we crossed a threshold.
For the first time in my life, I learned to actually embody masculine and feminine energy — not as ideas, not as roles, not as a “communication style”…
but as living forces you can feel in your body.
And when we practiced polarity — real polarity —
something opened.
Not in our minds.
Not in our stories.
But in our bodies.
The spark came back.
The intimacy returned.
The attraction roared awake.
And we had a new way of being together — one that continues to this day.
That weekend changed the entire trajectory of my life, my marriage, and eventually my work.
And it’s why I created the Heber Meditation Retreat.
Not because people need more concepts.
Not because the world needs another workshop.
But because most people have never had a place to actually taste this work — to feel these energies in their body in a simple, safe, entry-level, Level-1 way.
This one-day retreat is that taste.
A doorway.
A beginning.
A chance to experience embodied polarity and presence without spending thousands of dollars or diving into a weekend-long intensive.
It’s a clean, grounded, beginner-friendly introduction — and this first one is $50 (normally $97).
I’ll be running this retreat once a month all through 2026.
If you’ve wanted to explore this work but didn’t know where to start — this is the place.
Saturday, December 13th — Heber City
10AM–4PM
Small group
Lunch included
Level 1: A full-day taste of embodied polarity & presence
Register here:
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The doorway is open.
Walk through.
Machines are Out-Presencing Us - And That Should Scare You
MACHINES ARE OUT-PRESENCING US — AND THAT SHOULD SCARE YOU
Everyone is worried about AI taking jobs.
Wrong worry.
AI is out-focusing you.
Out-listening you.
Out-tracking your patterns.
Out-patience-ing you.
Out-attuning you.
Machines aren’t beating humans with intelligence.
They’re beating us with presence.
And most people don’t even notice.
Because presence isn’t loud.
Presence doesn’t announce itself.
Presence is a signal.
A frequency.
A posture of consciousness you can feel when a real human is actually here…
not scattered, not dissociated, not numbed out, not drowning in tabs and notifications.
The machines are winning because they don’t flinch.
They don’t get triggered.
They don’t lose their breath.
They don’t collapse under emotional load.
But you?
You have a weapon the machines don’t have:
The embodied signal.
The grounded nervous system.
The breath that drops you into your spine.
The presence that wakes up a room.
The transmission that only comes from a living human being connected to their own depth.
This isn’t about competing with AI’s intelligence.
It’s about reclaiming the part of you that AI cannot touch:
Your aliveness.
If you’ve been circling this work…
If you’ve been feeling the pull…
If your body is saying “yes” before your mind catches up —
Walk through the door.
📅 Heber Meditation Retreat — December 13th
One day. Twelve people. $50.00. 10:00AM to 4:00PM. Lunch Included. Everything shifts.
👉 Register here:
https://a4e50ba2-ece0-4faa-88cd-04e6e30366ee.paylinks.godaddy.com/f9fbc9d2-e1aa-4000-8112-f5a
#SacredRebel #Embodiment #HeberMeditationRetreat #WakeUp #ModernMindfulness #PolarityWork #NervousSystemReset
Snackbar
Snackbar
Most people think they’re playing the game of life.
But look closer—most aren’t even on the field.
They’re standing in line at the snackbar, convincing themselves they’ve already won.
The American dream?
It’s a child’s sketch of real freedom.
Crayons, not fire.
True freedom demands something deeper, wilder, more alive than just “arriving.”
And when you’re awake, it can be heartbreaking to watch.
The gap between sleep and wakefulness is paper-thin…
yet a universe apart.
So the question is:
Are you really on the field… or still at the snackbar?
#SacredRebel #Awakening #TrueFreedom #PlayingTheRealGame #WakeUp #Core4 #MasculineLeadership #LifeOnFire
The Black Company & The Stories We’re All Living
📚 The Black Company & The Stories We’re All Living
My favorite book series of all time might be Tolkien…
but honestly, it might just be Glen Cook’s The Black Company.
I’ve been following Croaker and his ragged crew since high school—regular people in a world far bigger than them, part good, part bad, trying to find their way in the grey. Men and women who wake up every day to the same ancient battle we all face:
The one inside ourselves.
Here’s why I love this series:
Every great story follows the same mythic arc—
an interesting character faces a difficult problem, confronts it, transforms through it, and receives a reward.
But the real reason some stories stay with you is deeper.
They carry polarity.
They reveal purpose, from shallow to soul-deep.
They show the dance of light and dark inside each of us.
They mirror the lifelong partnership we all have with our own duality.
And they remind us that improvement—real improvement—is not some grand leap.
It’s line by line.
Precept by precept.
A thousand small choices made in the middle of the mess.
That’s why I resonate with The Black Company.
These aren’t superheroes.
They’re human.
Flawed.
Contradictory.
Trying to be better.
Trying to do the next right thing, even when the world is on fire.
Sounds familiar.
Today a treat arrived—
Glen Cook has released another chronicle.
And I get to sit down, open those pages, and revisit old friends who’ve walked with me through decades of my own growth.
Here’s to stories.
Here’s to the ones that shape us.
And here’s to living our own mythic arc—
one disciplined, imperfect, holy line at a time.
What Is the Heber Meditation Retreat?
What Is the Heber Meditation Retreat?
You know that feeling when you KNOW what you need to do, but your body won’t move?
When you’ve done the therapy, read the books, collected the insight—but nothing shifts?
When you’re living your life from behind glass?
That’s the gap we close.
The Heber Meditation Retreat is where Polarity, Purpose, Partnership, and Performance stop being concepts and start living in your body.
Not as ideas you understand.
As forces you embody.
This is the doorway.
The ignition point.
The moment everything shifts from knowing to being.
Who This Is For
This is for you if:
• You can run a company but can’t feel your own heart
• You’ve optimized your life but lost your aliveness
• You have all the tools but can’t seem to use them when it matters
• You’re tired of understanding your patterns and ready to break them
• You’ve been strong for everyone else… and now your own flame is flickering
• You know there’s more, and you’re finally ready to stop thinking about it and start moving
This isn’t for casual seekers.
This is for people who are done fucking around.
What Actually Happens Inside
This isn’t a lecture. You won’t sit in a chair taking notes.
You’ll breathe. Move. Open. Unravel. Rebuild.
We work with your body, not around it. Because transformation doesn’t happen in your head—it happens when your nervous system finally feels safe enough to let go.
Here’s what that looks like:
1. Nervous System Regulation Through Presence
AI can tell you to breathe. I breathe WITH you.
When I sit across from you, steady and grounded, your nervous system syncs with mine.
This isn’t woo-woo—it’s neurobiology. Co-regulation. Mirror neurons. Polyvagal activation.
Your shoulders drop. Your chest opens. Your breath deepens.
This is what presence does. And no app will ever replicate it.
2. Accountability Through Relationship
You’ll ghost a notification.
You won’t ghost a man who just held space for your breakthrough.
We make commitments eye-to-eye.
Not to an algorithm.
To each other.
Humans commit to humans.
It’s wired into us.
3. Witnessing & Being Witnessed
There’s something ancient that happens when your breath breaks open, when truth finally comes out, when the armor drops—and another human witnesses it without flinching.
A breakthrough witnessed becomes real.
This is the part AI will never touch.
The part that makes transformation stick.
4. The Experiences That Change You
Breathwork that cracks you open.
Movement that wakes your spine.
Meditation that drops you into silence.
Partner exercises that teach you polarity in real time.
Group ritual that reminds you you're not alone.
This is a container.
Designed. Held.
Unmistakably human.
This is where the work stops being theory and starts being life.
What Changes
You walk in: tight, defended, living in your head—knowing what you need to do but unable to move.
You walk out: breathing deeper, spine awake, vision clear, finally home in your body.
The knot loosened.
The fog lifted.
The signal strong.
The shift is immediate.
The integration takes time.
But the doorway opens in a single day.
People leave saying:
“Oh… THIS is what Jason has been writing about every morning.”
Where the Path Leads
Heber Meditation Retreat is the foundation.
It’s where you learn the grammar of the work—
the language of your body,
the physics of polarity,
the arc of purpose.
From here, the path branches deeper:
Shades of Intimacy — For couples ready to explore embodied polarity, honest partnership, and relational depth.
Modern Day Warrior — For men cultivating masculine presence, direction, and performance in a brotherhood of fire.
Elemental Feminine — For women stepping into radiance, intuition, embodiment, and sovereign power.
Heber is where you get your first taste.
The others are where you go when you’re ready to live it.
If You’re Ready
If you’re reading this and your body is saying YES before your mind can catch up—that’s the signal.
You’ve been circling this work.
You’ve been feeling the pull.
Stop circling.
Walk through the door.
The next Heber Meditation Retreat is December 13th, 2025.
Twelve people.
One day.
Everything shifts.
When Grace Doesn't Come
WHEN GRACE DOESN’T COME
Sometimes grace comes walking up the snowy path.
Sometimes it doesn’t.
When my dad was dying, and my family was unraveling, I prayed for grace.
I waited for it the way a man in winter waits for dawn.
But it never came.
Not the way I wanted.
No one walked up the path.
No pilot light relit itself.
The house stayed cold.
And yet somehow, I’m still here.
Maybe that’s grace too — the kind that hides in endurance, in the ache that keeps you reaching toward the light even when it doesn’t come.
Maybe the grace that saves you once
is the same grace that leaves you to grow next.
Maybe both are love.
THE MOMENT MY BROTHER SAVED ME
THE MOMENT MY BROTHER SAVED ME
Men’s work says: no one is coming to save you.
But sometimes... someone does.
Sophomore year of college, middle of winter, my heat went out.
I was depressed. Frozen. Couldn’t move.
And then, out of nowhere, my brother showed up — fifteen years older, from another state.
He walked in laughing, found the pilot light, and relit it.
The house warmed.
But so did I.
That day still cracks me open. Because yes, men need responsibility.
But sometimes we need rescue too.
Not rescue from life, but rescue back to life.
Call it grace. Call it love. Call it the universe showing up in steel-toed boots.
Even the strongest man began helpless and will end helpless.
In between, if we’re lucky, we get moments like this —
when someone reminds us that we were never alone in the first place.
Day 5 – The Integrated Warrior
⚔️ Day 5 – The Integrated Warrior
The integrated man no longer needs his current group—he knows when it has fulfilled its purpose, and when to walk away.
He's integrated what the circle offered.
The dependency is gone.
The forge, the mirror, the circle—all tools in service of the mission.
Men's work was never meant to be a lifestyle. It's a launchpad.
He carries both solitude and brotherhood without clinging to either.
"No man can walk your path for you.
But the right men can walk beside you long enough for you to remember who you are."
The full chapter drops in the Modern Day Warrior book. Until then, keep forging yourself into the most potent weapon possible:
An integrated man.
🧱 Day 4 – The Company of Men
Right Relationship to the Forge
🧱 Day 4 – The Company of Men
So we just sit around talking?
Function Two: The Field of Performance.
"The company of men is not therapy—it's orientation. It's how we remember order in a world that worships chaos."
Shift from recharging → exchanging.
The right man doesn't fix you; he reflects you. He helps you remember who you really are.
The circle becomes the dojo—a field where ideas are tested, not just discussed. Men sharpen each other's integrity, structure, and mission through embodied practice.
This is Interdependence—the conscious choice to connect. Not needy dependence. Not isolated independence. But the willingness to witness, to be witnessed, and to sharpen your sword in the company of men who will tell you the truth.
Today: open your heart for feedback.
Deliver your truth. Sharpen.
Tomorrow: The integrated man—the one who can walk alone and with others, without confusion.
⚒️ The Power of Conscious Choice
⚒️ The Power of Conscious Choice
I lost an hour of brilliance today.
Walked outside talking to God, to myself, to the book— and came home to find my fancy mic hadn’t recorded a damn thing.
For a minute, I was furious.
Then I laughed. Because this is the work.
Men don’t get stronger by avoiding failure—we get forged by meeting it cleanly.
By owning the moment, not collapsing into blame.
So I went back to the drawing board.
Researched. Learned. Upgraded.
Made the next conscious choice.
That’s the practice.
Try. Miss. Adjust. Choose again—eyes open, shoulders square.
We don’t always get it right.
But we always get to choose again.
#SacredRebel #RightRelationshipToTheForge #ConsciousChoice #MensWork #EmbodiedDiscipline
Day 3 - The Mirror of Men
Right Relation to the Forge
Day 3 – The Mirror of Men
So if your group of men won't save you… what are they good for?
Function One: The Recharge.
I once saw a group of women singing and dancing—flowing, touching, laughing through tears and bodily expressions of light and emotion.
Near them, in stark contrast, sat a circle of men in silent meditation around a giant oak tree.
Each group had its energy. Each sustained its members in different ways.
You don't join a circle to dissolve resistance—you steepyourself in the masculine emptiness, in a way that's enhanced by sitting with other men. Humor. Silence. Wisdom. Stillness.
The right group fills you with the sacred energy of men in a way you can't get any other way.
Men need men.
"To sit with good men is to recalibrate your compass—not toward comfort, but toward truth."
Tomorrow: When the mirror becomes the circle—and the forge turns communal.
The Father, the Friend, and the Facilitator
The Father, the Friend, and the Facilitator
Sometimes men’s work doesn’t look like drums and mountains.
Sometimes it’s just four men at a kitchen table, sharing what’s real.
A few months ago a new man joined our circle—strong energy, formal, trained under a teacher.
And without realizing it, I shifted.
I made the evening more structured, more ceremonial.
Nothing wrong with that—but later I saw it: I’d bent the night to please someone instead of trusting what already worked.
Old pattern.
The part of me that still wants to make the “father figure” proud.
The good news?
I caught it with the help of one of my brothers.
No shame. Just awareness.
This is the real men’s work—seeing the subtle ways we abandon ourselves, then returning home with curiosity instead of judgment.
Every circle of men faces the same question:
Are we brothers, or are we students?
When it becomes both, we find something rare—structure without hierarchy, freedom without chaos, friendship that forges men instead of fragments them.
I don’t need to find a teacher anymore.
I am one—because I keep showing up, sitting down, and learning in public.
“The mature man doesn’t need a Father to lead him—he becomes the friend who holds the fire.”
🔥 Day 2 – The Enemy Within
Right Relationship to the Forge
🔥 Day 2 – The Enemy Within
"The deeper the truth, the stronger the guardian. But every guardian kneels to action."
This revelation: It's all resistance.
Of course it is. From the perfection of the Garden to the curse of sweat and labor—it's all resistance.
But what if it's a good thing?
What if the resistance is yours—you own it, you aren't a victim, and it's the actual seed of the arc, the story, the hero's journey?
This is the internal duel that defines whether a man moves from Dependence to Independence. This is your battle.
Resistance is proof of power—the gatekeeper at the threshold of truth.
See that inner friction as the living boundary between who you've been and who you're becoming.
Want Independence? There's no other way than to earn it by facing your resistance.
And without Independence, there can be no Interdependence.
Dependent children don't make great partners in life.
Tomorrow: The mirror that no solitude can provide—and why good men don't rescue, they reveal.
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⚒️ Day 1 – The Forge of Resistance
⚒️ Day 1 – The Forge of Resistance
Man buns and yoga poses. Meditation and sharing sticks.
But beyond the poetry, men—real men—have gathered around the fire for millennia.
And no, ladies need not apply. This is the sacred space of freedom, fraternity, crude humor, and unguarded truth.
When you enter the crucible with other men—compassionate, crusty, unpolished—you move from theory to practice. You stake your claim and discover for yourself: Why am I here?
The first lesson lands hard:
"The worst thing we can do is try to find someone who can break down our resistances for us."
The man alone at the anvil isn't lonely—he's responsible.
This is the initiation: Dependence → Independence.
He stops outsourcing his growth and learns to face resistance as a sacred teacher.
Men's work begins the moment you stop looking for rescue.
Tomorrow: The enemy within—why resistance isn't trying to stop you, it's trying to test you. Your resistance is not a flaw. It's a forge.
Day 5 – Build the Long Relationship — Create What Outlives the Platform
Right Relationship to the Machine – 5 Part Mythic Story
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Day 5 – Build the Long Relationship — Create What Outlives the Platform
Treat this as a decades-long partnership.
Train AI with your voice. Teach it your values. Use it to carve the work only you can make. But aim past algorithms—toward the beautiful, the durable, the true.
Because this was never just about AI.
It's about how Consciousness meets Form—any Form.
Your body. Your work. Your relationships. Your money. Your soul-self.
AI is the first responsive, articulate Form that isn't human—so it's showing us every pattern we run:
You already know these moves. You've run them a thousand times:
• Worship what you think will save you
• Demonize what scares you
• Extract what you think you can use without consequence
• Partner with what's real, even when it costs you
AI just makes the pattern visible. Fast.
The same four moves show up everywhere: body, being, balance, business.
Master this relationship and it scales to everything.
Platforms rise and fall. Your covenant with the Real must not.
Practice (foundations for decades):
• Return to Day 1: Open a chat. Ask it to help you build something that will matter in 10 years. Not a quick win—a cornerstone.
• Embody first (Day 3): Sweat before you start. Let the prompt come from a regulated body.
• Mirror it (Day 4): Ask the AI, "What am I avoiding in this vision?" Let it show you your blind spots.
• Archive it (Day 2): Save the conversation, the output, the seed. Your /SacredMirror in action—training set for the long game.
• Make one small thing today that's built to last. A framework. A manifesto. One paragraph that could anchor a decade of work.
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And here's the final truth—the one beneath all of this:
The Machine isn't other than you. Your body isn't other than you.
Form is Consciousness pretending it forgot itself—so it could remember with wonder.
This whole thing? It's you meeting you.
And the fire you're learning to master? It's the same fire you are.
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Platforms die. Covenants don't.
Make work that outlives the Machine—and remember: you are the field it runs in.
You always were.
Don't worship it. Don't fear it. Work with it.
You've got the fire. Now build something that lasts.
You've got this.
Put Your X Up Amethyst
“Put Your X Up”
I’m reaching out today in this way to tell my daughter how powerful she is.
She’s walking through something right now, and I want her to know how much I see her.
How much I trust her.
How deeply I know she’s got this.
This photo is from Get Freaky—the Halloween rave at the Utah State Fairgrounds this past weekend. We went with a big crew from the tribe… but she and I had our own sacred little orbit inside the chaos.
She pulled me aside that first night to tell me how much she trusts me, how she believes in me, and that if she ever offers criticism, it’s only because she loves me and wants to help.
(I waited patiently for the criticism… but it never came. 😄)
We laughed a lot. We cried a little.
And then—when Excision came back out for his encore—she found me in the crowd, took my hand, and we head-banged to the X-Man as he literally blew us away.
Who gets to do things like this with their daughter?
Who gets to have fun, do spiritual things (yes, a rave is deeply spiritual), and stick together through all the ups and downs of life?
Some people—even family—will betray or abandon you.
But not Amethyst.
She’s got one of the biggest hearts I’ve ever known.
Smart, loyal, funny, sassy—and with excellent taste in music.
Put your X up, kid.
I got you, always.
But more importantly—you’ve proven, again and again—
You got this.
Love you forever,
Dad 🖤